Both characters are torn between their feelings of awe and loathing for India, although Olivia's relationship with this country is one of submission and devotion.

loathing 是动词 loathe 的名词形式，意思是"强烈的厌恶或憎恨"。loathe 本身表示"极度不喜欢或憎恶"。 这个词常用于描述对某人或某事物产生的强烈负面情绪，比普通的 dislike（不喜欢）程度更深。