When we came back, it felt like we were sinking into a miserable life, full of disgrace.

disgrace 由前缀 dis-（表示"否定、相反"）和 grace（优雅、体面）组成，字面意思是"失去体面"。作为名词时指"耻辱、丢脸的事"，描述因行为不当而丧失尊严或名誉的状态。